Today is a hard day. I am really down because of the idea of the upcoming court date. D claims to have been sober for almost 4 weeks with no acting out. I almost wish he would tell me he has had a relapse, just so I would know if he can actually bring himself to be honest with me if that happens.
The good news: Yesterday in the car on the way to the PO meeting, he admitted that he had never fully taken responsibility for his offense. He had always in some way justified it to himself that while he had made a mistake, his victim was partially to blame. Yesterday he said that he was the adult, and at some point he made the decision, and that was fully on him. Here's hoping he really does mean that in his heart.